Last night I did not write a blog or do a vlog, as per my commitment to blogging/vlogging each day, and within looking at this point i see that in the days leading up to this i had been participating in thoughts of needing to get my blogging/vlogging done each day and making it a 'rule' that i do this, thus creating daily blogging/vlogging to be an entity separate from self - something that i required to push myself to do because i had made it a 'rule' and not an actual self-movement. so as i continued to allow pressure, stress, and anxiety over the point of doing a blog/vlog each day, the point compounded and i found myself at a state of not actually being HERE, not actually blogging/vlogging from a starting-point of actual self-expression or self-support - and rather i was actually feeding my mind - feeding the constructs within me - possessed by the idea/thought of having to do a blog/vlog each day - and the resistance grew around that point. i found myself going into stress and anxiety whenever it would get late into the evening and i had not yet done my blog/vlog, and would compound this point of stress and anxiety and 'force' myself through it without actually investigating or supporting myself within the resistance - which only suppressed the point.
i realized that i was not actually writing for self-support - that i was writing just to maintain a commitment to write and post a blog/vlog each day - as though by virtue of me doing the act of posting a blog and uploading a vlog each day i was then 'supporting myself'- when in fact i was supporting an idea/opinion which ultimately lead to a lockdown/possession where i would experience massive resistance due to wanting to present myself a certain way, wanting to 'maintain' my blogging and vlogging to fit the idea i had about it.
so within this i have also constructed the point of polarity within 'not doing a vlog/blog' each day - setting up for myself the eventuality of an energetic 'low' if i do not blog/vlog because the starting point was of energy - of mind.
thus i now support myself to drop all rules - and stick to principle. it is not about whether or not i blog/vlog daily - it is who i am within it all, and how i will direct myself within each moment. it does not actually support me or anyone when i am not actually sharing self-realization or sharing self within actual vulnerability - it is ego and self-interest to want to blog/vlog from a starting-point of wanting validation or seeking some form of acceptance/redemption.
the correction here is not to stop blogging or vlogging daily - nor is it to force myself to blog/vlog from a starting-point of ego/mind. it is to clear the starting-point and get self-honest with who i am in the point of blogging/vlogging so that i am HERE and not writing from/as the mind and not going into energetic possession or losing myself within knowledge/information within my vlogs.
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within blogging and vlogging daily
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to resist and compound the resistance to blogging and vlogging daily within separating self from blogging and vlogging and creating blogging and vlogging as a 'rule' that must be followed
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear others judging me for not blogging/vlogging daily each day
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for not blogging/vlogging each day
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i cannot share myself unconditionally and that i must be 'clear', and within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place pressure upon myself to constantly and continuously be 'expanding' and 'bettering' myself and sharing this expansion of self within my blogs and vlogs
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i must be a 'model' for others in terms of self-expansion and self-correction, and within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not changing, not expanding, not living up to the 'model' that i believe i must be
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to trust my mind within it's interpretation of how i am doing within my process and within this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others and judge myself as inferior to the expression of others in blogs and vlogs.
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear exposing self, and within this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that that which can be deleted was ever real or of actual substance
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am my mind and that the thoughts, emotions, and feelings that my consciousness experiences is real or lasting or special in any way.
I am HERE - and my starting-point within blogging and vlogging daily is to support myself within self-expansion and self-realization - and within this it is not about making sure that i post or upload something every day - it is to make sure that i am not in my MIND every day. always it is the starting-point that determines the manifested consequences.
When i see that it is not practical/effective for me to vlog or post a blog, i will not do so and will direct myself and support myself through applying self-forgiveness spoken or written, and/or i will support myself by investigating what is the actual resistance/fear that is in the way, and/or i will support myself within moving and participating within my actual reality if i see i am getting locked down and going into resistance doing the writing or vlogging, and/or i will assist myself within directing myself to take a nap and 'sleep it off' and return to the point the moment i wake up, and/or i will see whether there is something in my actual physical participation that requires change or direction.
i continue my application of blogging/vlogging - without holding on to any ideas or thoughts/opinions or making it a 'rule' that must be followed - and simply move myself within the point and trust self to direct self in that moment if i see that vlogging/blogging will not be effective/practical to do in that moment.
Documenting My Self-Honesty and Self-Forgiveness Process
Showing posts with label equality rant. Show all posts
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Friday, January 21, 2011
Why an Equal Money System? Every reason possible
MONEY – In sickness and in health, till death do us part.
In the world that I live in now there is NO escaping money. Even if I were to sell or give away all of my possessions and walk away from the entire matrix system of money and go off the grid, I am STILL subject to money because it is money that determines the quality of my entire environment. It is MONEY that will determine whether the off-grid location I will set up home at will have been damaged by pollution or whether attempts have been made to ensure that the area is able to support life. It is MONEY that will determine whether or not somebody may come along and simply buy out the land from underneath my feet because I do not own title or claim to the area. It is MONEY that will determine if the soil will be arable or whether it had been exposed to chemicals or simply has been rendered infertile through erosion of topsoil. It is MONEY that determines whether there is wildlife around me to hunt and feed from or whether the area had been rezoned for industrial or urban development. Thus my going 'off-grid' would not be an act of freedom – it would simply remain another form of enslavement to a system which has the ability to determine the quality of my life even if I walk away from it.
Every single facet of my life has been determined by money since before I was born. My mother would have required the money to get the care necessary to give birth to me. The staff at the hospital would have required money in order to have sustained themselves in this world enough to be able to get an education and become workers in the medical field. The medical industrial complex would have needed money to continue being able to pay those who work in hospitals and in research/development. The hospital itself would have needed access to funds in order to maintain facilities and staff, and all of this is just for me to be able to be delivered out of my mother's womb and into the hands of a doctor- let alone my actual experience of being alive upon my emergence into this world.
Had I been born to a family that had a lot of money, my life would be drastically different. This is true for every single human that is born on this planet. If one is born into a situation in which money is not in adequate supply, the quality of life for that child becomes greatly hindered by the availability of funds for that child's caretakers. And should no caretakers be around or should the money run out, the child's life expectancy drops dramatically.
Many have rightly surmised that money is the root of all evil – but fail to see the human hands that had engineered money to be what it is. Many have not seen that it is not money itself that is evil, but what we have collectively allowed to happen through money – having made money a commodity greater than life itself.
For myself, I see that EVERY single thought within me is influenced by money and my relationship to it in this world. EVERY desire I have, is linked to money. EVERY opinion I have about the world, is influenced by money. I have created myself to be personalities and fake faces in order to secure ways to get money and ways to remain acceptable within the matrix in order to support myself to be able to survive – yet within this survival I am not in any way ALIVE or self-directed. I am simply surviving and existing within enslavement. And this is true for all humans whether they are impoverished and living in squalor in the third-world (which in itself is absurd considering that we are at a stage of development where poverty is able to be wiped out and the same is true for aids and starvation) or whether they are living in luxury in an elite family. All humans are currently under complete hypnotic control and fear around the point of money.
Each time I want to do something, the first thought in my mind is 'can I afford it' – because if I spend too much money on something then I run the risk of not having enough money to buy survival. So there is a constant choice that must be made of whether I will buy survival or whether I will buy self-expression or entertainment. And it isn't just me. It is all human participants. We work jobs in order to get money, to buy things that we are trained and programmed to enjoy by those who require us to give them our money so that in turn they can survive and be able to buy goods of their own and while all of this is going on there is a class of people benefiting from all of the transactions while contributing nothing of actual value.
I cannot say with certainty what I would be doing if money were no longer an issue of survival. I have no idea what my self-expression would be in this world if I did not have to compete with others, do things I did not want to do in order to survive, and living in constant fear of death because the current system allows those without money to die.
In my life I have compromised myself, lied, cheated, stolen, manipulated, and exploited others all within the constant need for money not for my entertainment, but for my continued existence on this planet. It has become REQUIRED that humans cheat and deceive in order to exist – and this is NOT human nature. Yes there are aspects that are pre-programmed but this is NOT who we are and is NOT our 'natural' state. We have accepted and allowed ourselves to remain within this initial programming out of constant fear of death and having living in competition, scarcity, war, distrust, and dishonesty for centuries, but even so, we are able to change.
If I had been raised in a world in which the Equal Money System were in place – there would not be any fear within me of 'not being good enough'. There would be no sense in competing to 'better' another. The incentive would be the betterment of ALL. There would be no reason to deny anyone anything, because all are equally supported to be here and all are equally deserving of honor and dignity within their expression. There would be no crimes committed out of desperation. There would be no 'laziness' within people who had become fed up with a system that continually shuts them out and disregards them if they are not able to be exploited for their labor. I would live in a world where innovation and improvement would not be done for profit, but for the expansion of humanity and the improvement of the actual quality of life for all. I would be able to express myself, expand myself, explore myself along with all fellow humans and live in a world were there is no more fear or uncertainty.
Yet the EMS is not here yet. And those of us who see what it can bring, see it's full potential, and see that it is currently the only practical and effective way to sort out the problem of human existence on this planet to do whatever it takes within this lifetime to ensure that such a system is in place for all future generations – to be able to exist in real support and dignity.
I see clearly that there can be no other way to restore real value and meaning to life. I see clearly that any other economic solution would simply be putting a bandage over something that is terminally ill and must consume life in order to sustain itself.
Any talk of a resource based economy that does not take into consideration how deeply entrenched money is to the condition of the human is operating from a point of blindness and delusion. Any solution that does not address the fundamental problem of insurmountable debt, inequality, and the basic requirements that must be met in order for any human being to be able to live a dignified life are by design doomed to fail as we are seeing with the current systems of the world.
One day money WILL become irrelevant and we WILL be able to co-exist without needing to use money. But unless we establish and correct humanity's relationship to LIFE, and ensure that all beings have an opportunity to live within dignity and honor, we will need a money system based on equality as a transition step. We require a money system that supports ALL and is NOT tied to debt or profit.
An equal money system is the inevitable 'impossibility'. Many have not yet seen or truly understood how vital it is to have an equal money system in place within our lifetimes – they do not see that EVERYTHING hinges currently on an equal money system being established. There is not a single problem in the world today whether it is environmental damage, social decline/unrest, medical pandemics, geopolitical wars, or problems within human relationships with each other – that can be fixed or corrected in any meaningful or lasting way UNLESS we have established an equal money system.
And to do that we must BE the equal money system. We must prove by standing up within ourselves and sorting out all of the mess that we have accepted ourselves to exist as. We must begin with letting go of and taking responsibility for all that we have done to ourselves and to each other. We must forgive ourselves and forever STOP the pattern of abuse that we have participated in for centuries of time.
Yes, we will have to change human nature – by changing the nature of ourselves.
I stand within and as the commitment to ensure that equality is here in fact within my lifetime. I begin with purifying myself.
In the world that I live in now there is NO escaping money. Even if I were to sell or give away all of my possessions and walk away from the entire matrix system of money and go off the grid, I am STILL subject to money because it is money that determines the quality of my entire environment. It is MONEY that will determine whether the off-grid location I will set up home at will have been damaged by pollution or whether attempts have been made to ensure that the area is able to support life. It is MONEY that will determine whether or not somebody may come along and simply buy out the land from underneath my feet because I do not own title or claim to the area. It is MONEY that will determine if the soil will be arable or whether it had been exposed to chemicals or simply has been rendered infertile through erosion of topsoil. It is MONEY that determines whether there is wildlife around me to hunt and feed from or whether the area had been rezoned for industrial or urban development. Thus my going 'off-grid' would not be an act of freedom – it would simply remain another form of enslavement to a system which has the ability to determine the quality of my life even if I walk away from it.
Every single facet of my life has been determined by money since before I was born. My mother would have required the money to get the care necessary to give birth to me. The staff at the hospital would have required money in order to have sustained themselves in this world enough to be able to get an education and become workers in the medical field. The medical industrial complex would have needed money to continue being able to pay those who work in hospitals and in research/development. The hospital itself would have needed access to funds in order to maintain facilities and staff, and all of this is just for me to be able to be delivered out of my mother's womb and into the hands of a doctor- let alone my actual experience of being alive upon my emergence into this world.
Had I been born to a family that had a lot of money, my life would be drastically different. This is true for every single human that is born on this planet. If one is born into a situation in which money is not in adequate supply, the quality of life for that child becomes greatly hindered by the availability of funds for that child's caretakers. And should no caretakers be around or should the money run out, the child's life expectancy drops dramatically.
Many have rightly surmised that money is the root of all evil – but fail to see the human hands that had engineered money to be what it is. Many have not seen that it is not money itself that is evil, but what we have collectively allowed to happen through money – having made money a commodity greater than life itself.
For myself, I see that EVERY single thought within me is influenced by money and my relationship to it in this world. EVERY desire I have, is linked to money. EVERY opinion I have about the world, is influenced by money. I have created myself to be personalities and fake faces in order to secure ways to get money and ways to remain acceptable within the matrix in order to support myself to be able to survive – yet within this survival I am not in any way ALIVE or self-directed. I am simply surviving and existing within enslavement. And this is true for all humans whether they are impoverished and living in squalor in the third-world (which in itself is absurd considering that we are at a stage of development where poverty is able to be wiped out and the same is true for aids and starvation) or whether they are living in luxury in an elite family. All humans are currently under complete hypnotic control and fear around the point of money.
Each time I want to do something, the first thought in my mind is 'can I afford it' – because if I spend too much money on something then I run the risk of not having enough money to buy survival. So there is a constant choice that must be made of whether I will buy survival or whether I will buy self-expression or entertainment. And it isn't just me. It is all human participants. We work jobs in order to get money, to buy things that we are trained and programmed to enjoy by those who require us to give them our money so that in turn they can survive and be able to buy goods of their own and while all of this is going on there is a class of people benefiting from all of the transactions while contributing nothing of actual value.
I cannot say with certainty what I would be doing if money were no longer an issue of survival. I have no idea what my self-expression would be in this world if I did not have to compete with others, do things I did not want to do in order to survive, and living in constant fear of death because the current system allows those without money to die.
In my life I have compromised myself, lied, cheated, stolen, manipulated, and exploited others all within the constant need for money not for my entertainment, but for my continued existence on this planet. It has become REQUIRED that humans cheat and deceive in order to exist – and this is NOT human nature. Yes there are aspects that are pre-programmed but this is NOT who we are and is NOT our 'natural' state. We have accepted and allowed ourselves to remain within this initial programming out of constant fear of death and having living in competition, scarcity, war, distrust, and dishonesty for centuries, but even so, we are able to change.
If I had been raised in a world in which the Equal Money System were in place – there would not be any fear within me of 'not being good enough'. There would be no sense in competing to 'better' another. The incentive would be the betterment of ALL. There would be no reason to deny anyone anything, because all are equally supported to be here and all are equally deserving of honor and dignity within their expression. There would be no crimes committed out of desperation. There would be no 'laziness' within people who had become fed up with a system that continually shuts them out and disregards them if they are not able to be exploited for their labor. I would live in a world where innovation and improvement would not be done for profit, but for the expansion of humanity and the improvement of the actual quality of life for all. I would be able to express myself, expand myself, explore myself along with all fellow humans and live in a world were there is no more fear or uncertainty.
Yet the EMS is not here yet. And those of us who see what it can bring, see it's full potential, and see that it is currently the only practical and effective way to sort out the problem of human existence on this planet to do whatever it takes within this lifetime to ensure that such a system is in place for all future generations – to be able to exist in real support and dignity.
I see clearly that there can be no other way to restore real value and meaning to life. I see clearly that any other economic solution would simply be putting a bandage over something that is terminally ill and must consume life in order to sustain itself.
Any talk of a resource based economy that does not take into consideration how deeply entrenched money is to the condition of the human is operating from a point of blindness and delusion. Any solution that does not address the fundamental problem of insurmountable debt, inequality, and the basic requirements that must be met in order for any human being to be able to live a dignified life are by design doomed to fail as we are seeing with the current systems of the world.
One day money WILL become irrelevant and we WILL be able to co-exist without needing to use money. But unless we establish and correct humanity's relationship to LIFE, and ensure that all beings have an opportunity to live within dignity and honor, we will need a money system based on equality as a transition step. We require a money system that supports ALL and is NOT tied to debt or profit.
An equal money system is the inevitable 'impossibility'. Many have not yet seen or truly understood how vital it is to have an equal money system in place within our lifetimes – they do not see that EVERYTHING hinges currently on an equal money system being established. There is not a single problem in the world today whether it is environmental damage, social decline/unrest, medical pandemics, geopolitical wars, or problems within human relationships with each other – that can be fixed or corrected in any meaningful or lasting way UNLESS we have established an equal money system.
And to do that we must BE the equal money system. We must prove by standing up within ourselves and sorting out all of the mess that we have accepted ourselves to exist as. We must begin with letting go of and taking responsibility for all that we have done to ourselves and to each other. We must forgive ourselves and forever STOP the pattern of abuse that we have participated in for centuries of time.
Yes, we will have to change human nature – by changing the nature of ourselves.
I stand within and as the commitment to ensure that equality is here in fact within my lifetime. I begin with purifying myself.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
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