Future Projections Are Science Fiction

Often I have made decisions about what I would like to be and become in my life, what I would like to 'experience' myself as, and would idealize these concepts and place them into an alternate dimension in my mind, in some possible future, where I have already done the necessary steps to make that decision a reality and begin to lose myself within that fantasy of an alternate future where I get to live the life of my dreams, and will create such vivid experiences for myself based only making myself feel happy or as a way to 'comfort' myself by projecting myself into that idealized world so that I am able to, for a moment, escape from my current reality where I see there are points that I am not satisfied with but have not directed myself effectively to change.

What happens is that this 'idealized' version of self assumes that I have already done the 'work' of what it will practically require in order for me to be and become that idea – that picture – and while I am generating energetic experiences for myself to feel happy and comfort myself with this projected future reality in which everything 'works out fine' and I am the 'ultimate winner', eventually the energy runs out and I am back HERE, where I have not in fact moved myself within directing what is currently in my life, and I become disappointed because what is actually HERE in my reality then seems so far from that alternate future reality that seemed so vivid, so 'real', because I had placed so much emphasis on the experience of it within me – where I made that experience 'more than' what is actually here and thus become disappointed when the illusion ends and I see that I am not yet THERE in that future dimension, which then seems even 'further away' or simply 'impossible' because it is in no way based on what is actually HERE and who I actually am at this very moment, in this very breath, in the current context of my placement within the world, my relationships, and my standing within myself.

These future projections of idealized selves are addictive because they serve as a 'promise' or a momentary 'taste' of the ending of a conflict or the resolution of a particular challenge in my life that I am currently facing or still trying to suppress, where 'if only' that alternate future were real, I would 'already' be 'done' with what I am now facing or still suppressing which is causing discomfort, conflict, and friction within my experience of myself because I see that I am being dishonest with me and not living my life to the fullest potential possible because I am holding on to fears and self-created limitations that I have not forgiven and walked through with actual, practical self-movement.

Thus future projections are actually a point of self-manipulation where I attempt to 'comfort myself' or give myself an essentially empty promise of a better 'future' where everything will be alright, so I do not need to fret or worry or concern myself with what is currently troubling me in my life, where I have not given proper direction, and to simply allow whatever is currently 'not working' in my life to continue since I am able to just project myself into an alternate dimension and experience myself as 'happy' and 'complete' and thus ignore and disregard what I require to do and give direction to within my actual living – not seeing or realizing that when I participate in such future projections I in fact diminish my ability to do what is required to be done and actually trap myself within not walking through the resistances and fears that are currently keeping me from actually, practically, living and expressing the life that I would truly want, where I give up on myself and the potential of what I am able to accomplish due to fear of failure or fear of rejection or fear that I cannot in fact manifest my desires because the desire itself is not based on what is best for all.

Identifying the Aspects of Future Projections

There are some different aspects of future projections that I notice as I look at this point and examine the various starting points that give rise to future projections -

1. “Fear of Failure” – Creating future realities in order to compensate and justify not moving myself because I have already made the 'decision' that I 'cannot' or am simply not willing to do what is necessary to be done.
2. “Impatience/Lack of Self-Trust” – Creating future projections because I have not developed the necessary discipline and patience to develop the necessary skills and create the necessary conditions to manifest a particular point, thus allowing self to give in to the idea that I am not able to trust myself commit myself to doing what it takes to get something done.
3. “Addiction to Instant Experience and Energy” – Creating future projections because I am able to experience 'instantly' the 'result' that I would like for myself, where I am only considering how I would like to experience myself within self-interest and not taking into consideration what it would take for me to really, in fact experience that point in my reality, where the 'reality' is not as exciting or stimulating as what I am able to generate and create within my mind – thus giving in to the addiction of energetic experiences that are able to happen 'instantly'.
4. “Magical Wishing” - Where I do not want to actually work or be diligent and instead 'wait' for life or the universe or some external force to simply give to me what I desire, so that I do not have to face any point of 'failure' or 'rejection' because I have made this future projection 'more important' and more 'valuable' than myself, and prefer to not risk 'messing it up' within lacking self-trust and self-value, which I place into this idea outside of myself that I secretly wish would just 'manifest' for me because I wish an desire for it so badly.

Self-Forgiveness on Future Projections

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create future idealized versions of myself, where I picture and create experiences of already being the things that I desire and currently exist in separation from, and project those points out into a future reality that is not in fact here, so that I am able to comfort and console myself and have something to 'look forward to' instead of being HERE with what is actually here in my current reality and working with what is here to step by step, breath by breath, undo the patterns and programming that do not assist or support me while establishing new foundations of self-honesty and self-trust as I walk myself to a point of self-perfection slowly but surely.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from that which I desire, which I then project outwards into the future as some goal that is outside of me that must be attained before I am able to be satisfied with myself, wherein I am constantly and continuously trying to manifest an 'ideal self' in an 'ideal future' based on pictures that are constantly changing and shifting according to the nature of my desires and self-interest as a response to me not in fact living my life HERE in the fullness and completeness that is already here, which I am simply not allowing myself to stand one and equal to/as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize the silliness of beating myself up and doubting myself and sabotaging myself just because my current reality does not match up with a reality that I intentionally created as a fantasy in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT slow down and consider if it is actually worth the time and energy that I spend creating future projections, planning for future projections, trying to manifest those future projections, and putting off that which requires my direction and attention HERE in my actual daily living application in the hopes of being able to sort out my current problems by creating a better 'future' – not seeing or considering that any 'future' will only be a consequential outflow of who and what I am and what I am accepting and allowing within myself HERE, in this very moment of breath, and if I am not HERE directing what is HERE, then any future that may result will be one that is mis-directed because I did not take the time and opportunity to direct myself and missed the chance to direct me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will only be happy, only be content, only be satisfied with myself if I am able to be and become the pictures that I create in my mind which are based on desires that I have separated myself from and to not stop and question WHERE and these desires come from and HOW I have separated myself from them to such an extent that I have been willing to put my actual living application HERE in each breath on hold, as I 'hold my breath' and wait for some ideal future reality to manifest while my actual life and living goes undirected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny myself the self-trust and self-will to step by step, breath by breath, develop and create the best possible version of myself in this life through patience and walking what requires to be walked practically and realize that it is in fact possible to change me and it is in fact possible to live and express me in ways that I have not allowed myself to before simply due to fear and separation and allowing myself to exist within the mind instead of living HERE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my trust within the mind's ability to create fictional realities through energy as thoughts, feelings, and emotions to generate 'experiences' within myself that never last and always leave me disappointed instead of developing Self-Trust within the surety and certainty of each breath that I take as a commitment and decision to myself – to honor and restore the stability and completeness of me as LIFE one breath, one point at a time.

Self-Corrective Statements/Commitments

I commit myself to, when and as I see/notice myself projecting into the future and creating a 'better experience' than what I am currently walking/facing, stop myself and realize that being in that alternate world will only prolong my process of walking and facing what is HERE and that the extent to which I am able to effectively work with and direct what is HERE, is the extent to which I can be certain that any potential 'future' that will develop from this present moment will be effective and in alignment with my commitment to re-establishing me within what is best for all.

I commit myself to, when and as I require to plan and make decisions in relation to my 'future', write out specifically the points to be considered in terms of what I am currently walking and facing in my actual reality and to move myself within the necessary actions and decisions that will in fact align me within what is best for all as the most effective placement of myself, wherein I do not allow my decisions to be influenced by desires or fears or future projections, but rather aligned to practical considerations.

I commit myself to bringing myself back here each and every time I notice myself projecting into a future projection where I am already experiencing some form of 'success' or 'completion' that is not in fact here as me as my actual reality and do not allow myself to linger or hold on to such projections because I see and realize that allowing myself to distract myself with such projections and 'waiting' for some kind of miracle to manifest for me my desires instead of moving and directing myself effectively in each moment and being my own point of self-creation.

I commit myself to stop projecting myself into alternate future realities in which I have already accomplished a task or achieved a certain goal or decision, or make ANY decisions based on such future projections and instead support myself within facing what is HERE so that I in fact walk through my points of resistance and fear, and PROVE to myself beyond any doubt or future projection/expectation of the mind that I in fact create me and direct my life – thus I do not require to project myself into an alternate reality/future in an attempt to 'find' or 'create' myself.

Redefining Words -

“Future Projection”

“Future”

1. Time that is to be or come hereafter.
2. Something that will exist or happen in time to come: The future is rooted in the past.
3. A condition, especially of success or failure, to come: Some people believe a gypsy can tell you your future.

“Projection”

1. An estimate or forecast of a future situation or trend based on a study of present ones.
2. The presentation of an image on a surface, esp. a movie screen.

Here I see that when these words are placed together, one can see the design of projecting into the movie screen of our minds the estimated future situations or trends based on one's current study of/understanding of the 'present'.

Herein the tendency and habit to project and create as the idea of our 'future' which is always based on what we currently see and understand as our 'present' – where we take what we currently live as knowledge and information and create our 'future' based on current understanding – already here we see the fear of simply living and letting go of knowledge and information – not allowing ourselves to exist as the simplicity that is always here and always needing to 'hold on to' our knowledge as our past, our memories, our 'experiences' as though such experiences are real or valid when even now, in this very breath, such experiences are not real – not solid – not existent in this reality other that in our own minds.

Thus 'future projection' in this context is the act of projecting and attempting to create as our 'future' and idea or belief of what will happen, based on the knowledge and information that we are existing as in the 'present' – or rather the 'now of consciousness'.

Sounding Words -

Future Pro-jection – Future Projected Actions – Actions that are not actually performed in reality, but rather projected as moving pictures in the screen of the mind that takes place in the 'future' like a science fiction film.

Redefining the Words “Future Projection” into a practical understanding -

Future Projections = For-Sure Projects in Action

A practical redefinition of the term “Future Projection” would be to consider instead of projecting our desired actions into the future as pictures in our minds, which would be us essentially creating 'science fiction' films about the 'future' to entertain ourselves with, to rather align our 'future' with certainty instead of 'possible projections'.

We can do this within standing AS the point of certainty, where we are 'for-sure' because we stop participating in any uncertainty or doubt within ourselves as to what we do and why/how we do it, so that we are sure that the result of our actions and accumulations will bring about a solution that is best for all.

In this way, the projections stop being pictures in the mind – and become PROJECTS in ACTION – where we are able to practically take on as projects the various aspects of our lives and of this existence that are not creating an experience that is best for all, where we can stop wondering what should be done about the situation and instead move ourselves practically and place ourselves into and as action to do what requires to be done, one step at a time as we sort out and participate in the greatest project that has ever been undertaken within existence – the establishment of Heaven on Earth.

Thus instead of allowing self to become trapped in science fiction pictures within the mind as 'future projections' of what would be 'cool' in some alternate reality 'future', we place ourselves HERE and bring HERE as for-sure projects that will in fact result in a world that is best for all in ways that previously were only considered in science fiction.

I commit myself to live as for-sure projects in action that which will bring about what we have all truly desired within what is best for all and to stop, forgive, and let go of 'future projections' that only exist in make-belief.

No Such Thing As "PURE Imagination”

A point that I have often placed value in throughout my life has been my ability to 'escape' into my imagination and believe that I was 'special' for being able to create vivid and 'wild' and 'robust' fantasy worlds and illusions and stories in my mind which I would find more meaningful and far more interesting and 'deep' than the actual world that is HERE.

As a child I would often be creating my own fantasy worlds, populating them with people and plots and intrigue between my imaginary cast of characters, and held an idea that I was 'destined' to be a great story teller because of how much 'depth' I thought I was putting into the richness of the stories that I would create in my mind. This point of going into my imagination and creating whole worlds and sweeping 'epic' stories and going into energetic and emotional reactions from the very stories that I myself was creating was an intoxicating experience – where I felt as though I was god and that I was creating something powerful – something that elevated and exalted me, when really I was simply addicted to the energetic and emotional charges that I would be able to drum up within myself in my mind.

The more I participated in adding more and more layers to my fantasy world, adding in more and more plots and twists and developing the characters in my mind, the more 'real' those imaginary worlds seemed, based on the amount of emotional energy that I would experience within the stories I was creating – where there would be moments in my day where I would 'tune in' to that imaginary world and get a 'rush' of excitement as I placed myself into the role of one of the lead characters and allow myself to be swept up into the story – and there I would live out and express the things that I feared to express in my 'normal life' in the context of my family and the nature of suppression that I had developed in my childhood where I had trained myself to suppress myself and maintain a control over my emotions and feelings which led to me trying to 'work out' my suppressed energies through my 'creative' mind as a way of 'releasing' the energy – but here I did not see or realize that by turning within myself and creating worlds into which I would 'charge myself up' with more emotional energies, I was in fact digging myself ever deeper into my mind and into my 'great imagination' instead of actually facing and walking through the points in my life where I was allowing myself to be directed by the mind, by the energies, and by the suppressed emotions and feelings that I did not understand and tried to control.

When I did sit down to write out and place into an actual writing the stories that I would create in my mind I would always get to a point of resistance, where I wanted to manifest the story as I had imagined it, with the emotions and energetic elements that I experienced and charged the story with, but would not be able to translate that experience into my writing, and here I would get frustrated with not being able to actually manifest in reality my 'great epic story' and would not be able to live out my idealized self-belief of my being a 'great storyteller'. Looking back now I see that I was so caught up in the story in my mind that I did not allow myself the patience and dedication and discipline to develop my skills within creative writing and within a point of ego wanted to simply 'manifest' everything instantly because that was how I had created it in my mind, which here created an initial false belief that I am somehow unable to write and unable to express that creativity through my writing. So having no 'outlet' for the 'great and epic' story that was building in my mind and not seeing the solution of LIVING and participating in my reality instead of settling for self-created worlds, I simply continued to be introverted and isolated myself from others, still not allowing myself to explore and express myself in my physical, practical world and preferring the 'solitude' of my 'private' inner mind. 

Thus the suppressed emotional energies, the reactions, the anger, the fear, and all of the charges that I would experience within me and would continually suppress rather thanexpress, became their own world inside of me, and while I thought I was being 'creative' and 'imaginative' what I had actually been doing was translating my internalized/suppressed experiences and frustrations and energetic highs and lows into stories in my mind – where I was simply taking what was already stored and compounded within me as energetic experiences and memories that accumulated throughout my childhood and compounding them and getting further addicted to the energy and emotions rather than releasing the actual points of suppression.

A moment of sarcastic common sense with Willy Wonka

Thus here I debunk and disassemble the self-belief that I have carried within myself in relation to believing that I was a 'great storyteller' and to believe that I was somehow 'gifted' with a 'great imagination' and to hold that belief about myself as a point of ego and to not look behind this self-belief and get to the actual point of separation – and see that there was nothing 'special' about the worlds that I created and that there was nothing 'epic' or 'grand' – but rather was simply me attempting to control and maintain and use the suppressed emotions and energies within me because I feared to actually live and express me in the real world, and thus relied more and more heavily on me creating worlds within myself through which to have the interactions, relationships, and experience myself in the ways that I wanted but knew would not be able to.

Self Forgiveness – Creating Stories as a Coping Mechanism

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, instead of developing real relationships and participating in my practical, physical world, instead turn my focus and attention inwards into my mind wherein I would create my own worlds and my own fictional relationships with which to interact and further define my experience of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in my search for more energy and stimulation and not being able to find such energy and stimulation in the real relationships in my world due to the introverted and isolationist nature that I had developed within me where I lacked the social and communication skills to develop such relationships, instead turn within myself and thus create fictional worlds and characters in my own mind in order to get my energetic 'fix'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that participation in the mind within energy is extremely addictive and to have allowed myself to become addicted to the energy that I was able to experience within myself when participating in the mind through creating thoughts, pictures, stories, and allowing extensive backchat through which I would 'charge myself up' as the 'experience' of me within myself and within this to separate myself ever more from what is actually HERE as the physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, instead of participating directly in my physical reality within developing relationships, participating in activities with others, and getting  'out there into the world', rather focus on developing internalized relationships with myself in which I would further separate myself into compartments and alternate realities where through the years I developed relationships with alternate reality versions of people and personalities that I had created in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize the extent to which I have separated myself from other beings in my world through the extent to which I have isolated myself and allowed myself to delve further into my mind as my main point of interaction – where instead of interacting with this world and the people within it, I would instead interact with the worlds I would create within myself and the different voices/personalities that I would create in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of the sense of 'power' that comes with being able to instantly create one's own world and be able to adopt any kind of 'personality' that one desires, within the 'privacy' of ones' mind and to not see the extent of separation that this causes within the beingness of oneself – wherein one is speaking to self within the mind using different 'voices' and energetic charges and allowing such conversations to become the primary point from which one makes decisions about one's life and one's relationship with the rest of the actual, physical world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize the manifested consequences of me splintering myself into various and multiple versions of self existing in various and multiple dimensions in which different 'lives' and different personalities are created and stored as 'me' and thus to not have a stable and accountable point of SELF that is able to walk ONE LIFE effectively and fully, having split myself up into various components and 'minds' within me, each attempting to live out it's existence, and thus creating the experience within me of conflict and friction and the perceived 'inability' to remain focused and dedicated to ONE point and to walk that ONE point fully and in detail – where I allowed myself to simply believe that I am defective and simply 'not able' to function effectively instead of seeing that I have simply been trying to live out multiple versions of myself, in multiple dimensions and alternate realities, and within this not having made a single and clear decision as to who I am, and where I stand, thus not actually standing firm in any point in specific – where the lack of a constant and firm decision creates the backdoors and justifications to constantly 'give up' and 'get overwhelmed' and to remain within the limitation and acceptance of compromising me in my actual potential in this life – which then becomes the living statement of my self-acceptances – which becomes the actual 'example' that I am setting for the rest of existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself and the ability to stand and face whatever is HERE in my reality by becoming addicted to backchat and the preprogrammed thoughts and reactions and experiences within me, and to attempt to correct and 'fix' or justify how I experience myself in relation to my backchat by creating and participating in MORE backchat – where I create my own world and reality and fill it with people of my own creation with which to secretly 'act out' my actual desires and indulge in self-worship of my own ego and righteousness – where in my mind I am always right and always get the desired outcome that benefits me no matter who else might have to suffer – and to justify these thoughts and pictures because apparently 'nobody gets hurt' when I to this in the secrecy of my own mind – not taking any responsibility for the accumulation of such thoughts and backchat within me or the personality and ego and self-interest that develops from allowing such a point to exist within self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of my secret worlds and the illusion of 'power and control' that I am apparently able to utilize within my mind by creating my own - worlds and realities through my imagination – not seeing or realizing that I have NEVER actually been 'in control' of even my own inner realities because ALL of the internalized worlds and relationships that I have created have been the result of accumulated backchat and emotional experiences that I have compounded throughout my childhood – and the nature of my internalized worlds and creations reflect this in every way – this I was never a creator but rather a 'compressor' of energies and experiences that were ALREADY present within me – where I was simply re-packaging and suppressing what was already here and thus could not actually have been 'my' creation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is even possible to create anything 'new' or 'original' within my mind as stories or alternate realities when the very foundation of my understanding and ability to perceive and process information has been absolutely defined and influenced by preprogramming and by that which was already HERE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that I have sold myself and abdicated myself to energy within and as the mind wherein I have allowed myself to give up what is actually REAL and already HERE as the substance of life and the potential that is here within this reality for expression and expansion, and to have blinded myself and fooled myself into accepting a version of reality as determined by my mind and the preprogrammed relationships, thoughts, feelings, and emotions of the mind consciousness system.

Self-Realizations related to Creating Stories as a Coping Mechanism

1. Allowing myself to constantly and continuously participate in creating alternate realities and worlds within my mind instead of walking, breathing, and directing myself in the actual physical reality accumulates more and more self-separation and conflict in my world.
2. The conflict and friction that I experience in my world can be seen as a reflection of the conflict and friction that I experience within myself as the various dimensions and realities that I have created within me 'clash' due to me allowing the existence of alternate realities and dimensions that are not congruent or aligned and will seek it's own fulfillment without consideration of what is best for all.
3. The experience of apparently not being able to 'walk a single point' or to stick to principle and commitment within decisions is an outflow/consequence of me not making absolute commitments within self that are aligned in all dimensions in self – thus where I experience a conflict/friction/backchat or resistance or excuse/justification – it is an indication of where I am still holding on to an alternate dimension/secret agenda that I am not allowing myself to forgive and let go of which is compromising my commitments and decisions.
4. I have spend many years in accumulating backchat and emotional experiences which I have suppressed and then compounded into alternate realities within myself – thus it is not to judge or hold a grudge against myself but to see the origin point of what I had allowed myself to suppress and compound and to forgive and release that point and walk the correction of that point in my reality as I bring all dimensions HERE to the eye of the needle as I unify myself and align myself as ONE being, where my words, actions, and commitments are absolute in all dimensions of me.

Self – Correction on Creating Stories as a Coping Mechanism

When and as I see/notice myself experiencing a point of conflict/friction within my experience of self, I STOP the voice in my head and do not allow myself to participate in internal discussions that masquerade as 'self-introspection' and rather support myself to write the point out in a self-supportive manner instead of trying to win an argument with my own mind which will only create further self-separation.

When and as I see/notice myself 'lost' within a point of daydreaming/fantasy where I am not HERE and breathing and directing myself, I STOP and investigate the 'nature' or 'essence' of the daydream so that I am able to see where I am separating myself and where I am trying to create an experience in an alternate reality because of a point that I am not living/directing in my actual reality because I see and realize that the daydream/dimensional shift is NOT good or bad and is not to be judged or resisted or suppressed, but rather are indications of where I am attempting to create something that I desire using energy instead of seeing whether or not this point is able to stand within what is best for all and whether I will be able to bring this point to a practical point of manifestation in my life.

When I see/notice myself wanting to escape a point of responsibility or see/notice myself facing a point of resistance I STOP the voices in my head that attempt to 'talk' me into a decision that may compromise me and my point of self-honesty, and support myself to walk and apply myself within a decision that is best for all – where there can be no doubt or 'debate' as to whether or not my decision is one that is able to stand the test of time.

When I see/notice myself projecting into alternate realities in which I have an idealized relationship or event or circumstance that is not actually here in my reality, I STOP and realize that I am facing a point of separation where I am trying to create what is not HERE and am not allowing myself to walk the practical process of accumulation and discipline required to manifest and make REAL and establish within myself that which exists as a 'desire' that is separate from me, and to realize and understand that any picture or idea in my mind will always consist of energy and self-interest that does not take reality into consideration and therefore will not actually be able to manifest in this reality.

When I see/notice myself 'zoning out' or going into and as reactions and backchat in my mind instead of moving myself and directing myself, I STOP the voice in my head and do not try to fight or suppress the resistance or reaction. I stop and adjust and change what is able to be changed in one breath, and that which I cannot self-honestly change in one breath, I commit to accumulating the necessary breaths to slowly but surely change as the eventuality of me, and thus allow myself the necessary discipline and application and PATIENCE to walk my life to a point of self-perfection, realizing that it took many breaths to become who and what I currently am, and will take many breaths to undo these foundations.

Redefining the Word “Imagination”

1. the faculty of imagining,  or of forming mental images  or concepts of what is not actually present to the senses.

2. the action or process of forming such images  or concepts.

3. the product of imagining;  a conception or mental creation, often a baseless or fanciful one.

4. ability to face and resolve difficulties; resourcefulness: a job that requires imagination.

Here I see the word “imagination” as I have lived it – within the context of using imagination as a means to “create mental images or concepts of what is not actually present to the senses.”

Thus I have utilized the imagination like a magician, where I-am-a-magician and able to create clever illusions that distract and present a false assumption and presentation of reality, often employing what can appear to be 'magical' means that have no evident basis on actual reality or how it functions – thus creating an 'alternate' picture of reality presented as though it were 'real' without actually showing in detail the process through which such an illusion can be achieved because that would ruin the 'spell' that the magician uses to captivate and compel the audience.

Who I am within “Imagination” as “I'm a magician”

In my life I have utilized the point of being a 'magician' in my own mind where I am able to conjure up at will all kinds of illusions and distractions to keep myself occupied and distracted from actual reality, through my imagination.

Within this point of imagination I would exploit a desire for something that I have separated myself from – whether it is a particular relationship or a particular 'feeling' or experience which I believe would make me 'happy' – and will use that desire as the justification for me to temporarily suspend my disbelief and common sense so that I am able to accept an alternate version of reality and for a moment be able to experience that point of desire through 'magically' creating such an illusion using energy in my mind as thoughts, feelings, emotions, and 'imagination' – where I am both the magician and the audience, feeding off of the energy of me as the captive audience and turning that energy into the illusion that I craft as the magician/imagination.

Thus I see the here of how 'imagination' is often linked and associated with 'magic' and 'fantasy' – the 'imagination/i'm a magician' point exists in relationship with the point of 'fantasy' and the idea and belief of 'magic' where things are apparently able to just 'happen' without any regard for practical physical processes within the nature of actual reality and how as a child, I had allowed myself to create such points of 'magical' worlds within myself through my imagination – where the worlds seem to 'exist' in me without any substance or actual physical effort- not seeing that the energy to sustain and create such worlds comes directly from me as the physical essence of me.

Self-Forgiveness on the Word “Imagination” and association to “I'm a magician”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize my imagination in the manner of a magician creating alternate realities and illusions which are presented as 'real', which I suspend my disbelief for in order to for a moment experience an escape from this reality when the truth and actual manifested nature of this reality cannot be escaped in any way and remains HERE while any illusion or alternate reality that is created of energy must eventually dissipate and fall and be revealed as the illusion that it is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the sense of 'magic' and 'wonder' and 'fantasy' to the word 'imagination' without considering the actual and practical consequences of allowing imagination to be part of ones ability to access what is actually here as the relationships which are created in the physical yet disregarded in the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that having a good 'imagination' is a skill or talent in and of itself without considering the long-term effects of participation in 'imagination' and the creation of concepts and ideas that are not in fact based on what is best for all in THIS REALITY but rather based upon personal interpretations and creations of alternate realities which ultimately always serve self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in 'flights of fancy' and allow myself to be 'swept away' into the excitement of stories and the idea of magic and fantasy without seeing and realizing that in such moments I am allowing myself to deliberately indulge in feeding the mind and dulling my actual senses in the physical to practically observe and see what is in fact here, where I as the magician conjure and 'enchant' myself into delusional realities that do not support me to stand HERE and rather promise illusions that will inevitably burst as the temporary bubbles that they are.

New Definition of the Word - “Imagination” → “Image and Likeness in Action”

Thus the “imagination” must be the actual “Image and Likeness in Action”, where just as a magician is able to create by understanding certain principles and relationships and manipulating/directing those principles and relationships to achieve a desired effect, we are able to utilize the same function in a practical way that supports who we all are in the walking of our process of returning to the PHYSICAL and taking back our authority and directive responsibility as the Creator, where we as the Image and Likeness of the Creator can use our “Imagination” as the “Image and Likeness in Action” - where through actual and practical ACTION we direct the principles and relationships of this reality to achieve a result that is best for all as our Creation.

We are able to, through understanding the principles of creation in this practical reality, manifest and create that which is not yet here and not yet manifest as our creation, understanding that only that which is best for all in all ways and does not harm or lead to separation or abuse, will be able to stand the test of time and thus anything that is not in alignment within what is best for all will not be able to sustain itself and will eventually fall.

In our role and responsibility as creators of this reality we are able to see that which would be best for all through self-honestly taking all into consideration as one and equal expressions of ourselves, and we are able to determine what is currently here that does not support the creation of a heaven on earth, and we are also able to see and determine what is required to be here as the infrastructure and placement that will enable the creation of a world that is best for all – and though such a world can only exist as an 'image' for the moment because it is not yet here, we put that image into the action of self-creation – through our own living actions which accumulate to a result that is mathematically equated to what is best for all.

Thus imagination is the faculty of seeing clearly as the 'image' of what is best for all and is not yet here in our practical senses, and to bring that image to action in the physical, where imagination = image and likeness of the creator in action – slowly but surely bringing HERE what exists for the moment as an 'image' of oneness and equality.

Ignorance is NOT Bliss

Joe Kou 5/3/2012

Here I am looking at the point of “ignorance is bliss” which has existed as an excuse and justification in this world for many many years and has been one of the key points that has allowed the proliferation of abuse and atrocity within this world because the living of this statement “ignorance is bliss” whether a person is consciously aware of living this statement or not, is creating a false reality bubble in which those in a position within the current world who have access to money and are able to purchase and maintain private bubbles of alternate realities are the very manifestation of this 'bliss' while the rest of the world are simply disregarded and ignored as the IGNORANCE part of this “bliss” equation.

So here I am going to break the point down as I deconstruct how I see and experience this point of “ignorance is bliss” within the world.

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Firstly, the kind of 'bliss' that one is able to have is only able to exist if there is it's opposite – so if bliss is a state of pleasure, of calm, of serenity, then there must exist in this world the reality of displeasure, of stress, of chaos. We can see this very easily manifested in the world wherein those who have money are able to have 'bliss' and represent the “BLISS” part of the equation because they have the luxury of being IGNORE-ANT – they have the luxury to ignore the actual cost of their lifestyle and the suffering of untold billions on this planet and regard them as ANTS to be stepped on without consideration as if they weren't even there to begin with – while at the other side of the equation we have those who are the IGNORED – the billions on this planet who have their lives completely locked downand suppressed due to the current setup of the economic and monetary system which has been designed specifically to allow those with money to ignore those who do not, and to force those without money to work and be slaves and produce the very bubbles that allow the elite to entertain themselves in their private heavens. (A great interview is available on http://eqafe.com that speaks on this point of how 'positivity' is never an effective counter to the 'darkness' within self - Check it out )

The “bliss” that is able to be had by the elites of the world who have money and are able to simply purchase their survival and comfort and safety can only exist as long as the bubble is maintained – as long as the money that is used to secure these alternate realities of safety and comfort remains the primary force within this reality, those with money will always ignore the plight and suffering of those without – because it is really like two different worlds – two entirely different dimensions that do not cross each other and yet depend on each other and form a relationship of polarity in which one cannot exist without the other.  

The rich and the elite will likely never experience the suffering and hardship of having to survive without money and having to either be a wage slave or resort to crime and/or violence in order to obtain the necessary resources for survival, and those who are ignored in the world system will likely never have access to infrastructure or support that will allow them to better themselves, educate themselves, and be able to produce a better standard of living beyond slavery or lawlessness – because in order for the bliss to exist – in order for those with money to keep their illusionary reality – those without money must never be allowed to have the same access or the same quality of life because that would threaten the value and power of money – and if the value and power of money is ever thrown out of balance then the entire world system that has been built by money would essentially collapse and will have to face the harsh reality that all that has ever existed as that bliss – as that world of comfort and luxury – has been a terrible lie that has come at an inexcusable cost to the quality and dignity of life not just for the human beings who were the IGNORED, but for environment and the entire infrastructure of the world that has equally been IGNORED for the sake of keeping the 'bliss' alive for those who were able to afford it.

Therefore no real 'bliss' has ever existed in this world – all that has existed has been a system that generates the illusion of comfort and security while masking and hiding the cost of that lifestyle from those who can afford it, and externalize the cost onto those who do not have any money at all and yet are made to suffer and work and be slaves to the system that ensures their continued servitude and suppression so that the rest of humanity is able to maintain it's bubble, protected and kept safe from the abuse.

Who I am within “Ignorance is Bliss”

Within my own life I have lived this very point of ignorance wherein I did not actually consider the COST of the kind of lifestyle I have access to and concerned myself instead with only the PRICE – as in how much money it would take for me to buy a certain kind of luxury – not ever taking into consideration the time, the resources, and the lives of countless billions who will be affected by my continued participation in this economic setup and not caring because I do not have to see them, I do not have to face them, I do not have to explain to them in person why so many of them do not have access to toilets or fresh water or basic medical supplies or even access to a basic education while I am able to take all of these things for granted because I have access to money and they do not – thus I have lived in deliberate IGNORANCE of the massive problem that is here in our reality and how I have been a contributor to the abuse and suffering that is here as I pursued my own happiness and individuality and at all COSTS sought to maintain my bubble of bliss so that I never had to see the actual world or the abuse and suffering that exists because of the lifestyle that I am demanding yet refusing to give to others.

All of this because of the current setup of our money system and the failure to recognize reality due to how extensively we have been sheltered and 'protected' from our consequences through the use and abuse of the money system which was supposed to be a system used for our convenience but has instead become the very masters of our own reality – because as one looks deeper within this point of “ignorance is bliss” we miss out on the fact that even those of us we are fortunate enough to have access to “bliss” because we have access to money are STILL victims of the ignorance of the ruling elites who have absolutely NO regard for life or for our betterment but require that we accept our “bliss” and be thankful for our opportunity to exploit the rest of the world and keep the rest of the world as our slaves. We are also IGNORED by those who benefit from our labor and from our participation in this system in which we must continually purchase and consume and drive up more and more demand and use up more and more resources and IGNORE more and more humans who must suffer for our “bliss”.

NONE OF THIS IS NECESSARY – and it is an eventuality that reality will burst the bubble that is currently created by money and the abuse of money – it is an eventuality that this system no longer be able to function as the last reserves of resources and slaves are used up and the bubbles are no longer properly fed and maintained by the constant flow of money which we already see falling apart and buckling in the world system.

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Thus I begin with ending within myself the point of “ignorance is bliss” and establish a new foundation for myself as I walk this life and commit myself to bringing forth an ACTUAL bliss that is able to be lived and expressed by ALL – and does not require IGNORANCE as part of the equation.

Self Forgiveness on the point of “Ignorance is Bliss”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak the words “ignorance is bliss” without taking into full consideration the consequences of living that statement and the kind of world that results when we as human beings ignore what is here in order to see only our own versions of reality and to exist in personal bubbles.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the statement “ignorance is bliss” when I have money and am able to purchase my bliss and have the luxury of being able to ignore the actual conditions of life that billions are currently having to face each day due to beings living the statement “ignorance is bliss” as though being ignorant of what is here absolves a person from responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a system in which those with money are able to purchase and maintain a personal bubble of bliss and to never question or challenge the validity of this bliss when the physical world reflects a reality that is far from bliss in any way and is in fact self-destructing and diminishing life in every way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hear the phrase 'ignorance is bliss' and to accept that phrase as part of my acceptances and allowances and to believe that if I ignore a problem it will simply 'not exist' and eventually somebody else will take care of it or it will just 'sort itself out' when that which is here is ALREADY HERE and will not go away like magic and will remain here until we face and direct that is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress within me all of the points that I see are abusive within this world and are not supporting us to realize who we are within oneness and equality and to 'go with the flow' in order to maintain my own survival and comfort and illusion of 'bliss' within my self-imposed and deliberate ignorance of consequences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to close my eyes to this reality and run off into my own mind so that I am able to entertain myself within my own versions of reality because I have access to money and to believe that I am able to disregard and ignore the billions of human beings on this planet that are a part of the expression of ME as life and to not in any way care or consider the kinds of 'life' they must endure within the world we are currently creating.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take into full consideration the cost of what is here and the kind of lifestyles that I participate in in terms of how it affects the lives of all and whether all are able to equally participate and have access to the things that I have access to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that bliss is able to exist if there are those who are suffering and not able to participate or develop or expand themselves and are literally slaves within the system that are barely able to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I have money and do not have to worry about my next meal, take for granted the billions who are now still starving, believing that if I simply disregard them and do not look at them and focus on doing what I have to do to just support myself and get 'ahead' in the system and look after my own survival, then it is somehow justifiable to pretend that the abuse and suffering of others as myself is able to be ignored because I am apparently 'too busy'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the billions who are now suffering and in desperate need of a total change within the system that will enable them to restore themselves as life and to walk within and as dignity and honor as the life that they are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use money as a 'buffer' between myself and poverty and having to face or deal with those who are living in poverty instead of aligning myself to do whatever it takes and use the money that is here to support myself and others to stand up and bring forth a new system that will forever end the 'ignorance is bliss'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that nothing can be done about the situation of the world and that it would be easier for me if I just let it go and pretend that I do not see and that I am not aware of the suffering that exists even though I myself participate in the very same system of abuse each and every day and the problems of our current system are always HERE, “in my face”, because it is impossible to actually ignore.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I do not see something or simply suppress it deep enough, I will not have to actually deal with it or face who I am within it because it is already HERE and cannot be made “not here” and will not just go away if I refuse to look at it.

Self Forgiveness – The “Ignorance is Bliss” as addiction to ego

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to ignorance and suppression which I have used to maintain my own version of reality as well as maintain the personalities and self beliefs that I have defined myself as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that everything is 'fine' as long as I am getting what I want and I am directly suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to employ deliberate ignorance as self-dishonesty wherein I will see a point that requires to be directed and corrected and instead of taking responsibility for the point, rather suppress the point instantly and try to busy myself with other points and distract myself and convince myself that things are okay and that I do not need to do anything about it and eventually it will 'work itself out'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed ignorance to exist within and as me as a tactic to not take responsibility for the world that I am creating.

CORRECTION -

I see and realize that “bliss” is not real and cannot be real unless it applies for all life within what is best for all and that anything that is not aligned within what is best for all cannot possibly produce real 'bliss'.

I see and realize trying to avoid or suppress that which is happening in the world in terms of the abuse and suffering that occurs each day will not make these problems go away and that there is no way to in fact hide from the consequences of what we are doing because the consequences are already manifested HERE and will not disappear without directive correction and intervention to align the points in this world that are causing separation, inequality, and suffering.

When and as I see/notice myself in an experience of “ignorance is bliss” I stop and bring myself back HERE within the realization that ignorance is never bliss and bliss can never be real until it is here as a living expression within all life.

I commit myself to not uttering the phrase 'ignorance is bliss' or allowing that phrase to exist within me as backchat or justification.

I commit myself to stop hiding from the problems of the world or believing that things might be okay just because I have a moment of stability and have some access to money and am able to afford the luxury of my survival when billions of others cannot.

I commit myself to never settling for personal 'bliss' or the idea that things might be okay just because I am for a moment able to be comfortable. I do not rest until all are here within oneness and equality where dignity and honor is restored to ALL LIFE.

I commit myself to bring forth a world in which bliss is not lived within the private bubbles of the mind or in the private bubbles those who have money are able to afford, but rather bliss would be the manifestation of and expression of realizing that we are all here and we are one and equal – and that all deserve to exist in comfort, security, and dignity – thus 'bliss' is no longer a polarity word but simply a description of our oneness and equality recognized and lived in every way.

Self-Forgiveness - “Bliss” and it's definitions as I have lived them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word “bliss” within attaching the energetic feeling of warmth and 'comfort' and 'security' onto the word in separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate feelings of warmth and comfort and security onto the word “Bliss”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the word “bliss” to be a trigger point within me that brings up the experience of 'warmth', 'comfort', and 'security' when such points are not equal and one practical expressions in this world that all are equal within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the word “bliss” as a personal and private experience within myself where I am 'fine' and everything is perfect within my idealized word because I am for a moment not having to deal with or face the actual and practical reality of what is here in the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project a false and energetically based definition and picture upon the word 'bliss' and to live the word 'bliss' in separation from me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the word “bliss” to energetic charges of feeling 'warmth', 'comfort', and 'security' that are not in fact based on practical reality but rather based on memories and experiences.

Redefining the word “Bliss”

“Bliss” - Noun

1. supreme happiness; utter joy or contentment: wedded bliss.
2. Theology . the joy of heaven.
3. heaven; paradise: the road to eternal bliss.
4. Archaic . a cause of great joy or happiness.

Sounding the word -

“Be Less” - Wherein one is being less than the experience one is having within the mind – where the euphoria of 'happiness' and feeling safe, secure, and comfortable in one's world becomes a mind possession and one is in such a moment of possession being LESS than life. Thus to exist in “Be-Less” is a mental delusion when the state of the world is not in fact a state of safety, comfort, or security for all one and equal.

Considerations -

“Bliss” does not have to be a word that is charged with a polarity – it is only when the idea of 'bliss' becomes individualized within self-interest of the mind that it becomes lived as a mental delusion where one is not in fact here looking at or working with the practical physical reality but rather is entertaining ideas of 'happiness' and personal gratification – thus creating the polarity due to separating oneself from and ignoring what is HERE.

New Definition -

“Bliss” -

1. The state of oneness and equality wherein all are taken into consideration within what is best for all.
2. The state of existence in which there is no conflict or abuse due to separation or disregard which allows the expression of life to exist in a context of security and comfort with the practical assistance and support of all parts of life.
3. A state of existence as a whole only able to be achieved as a whole within what is best for all.

I commit myself to bring forth a world in which “Bliss” is the manifestation of and externalization of oneness and equality wherein all life is taken into consideration and the experience of bliss is not based on energetic polarities or alternate realities within the individual minds of beings.

I commit myself to do whatever it takes do ensure that “Bliss” ends as an energetic possession within the mind where one projects into or creates the feeling of 'happiness' and 'blissfulness' while in separation from the actual world that is here and not considering if the bliss one experiences is in fact a living reality in all ways.

I commit myself to point out and expose the false 'bliss' that is an impostor to the actual bliss that all life within and as existence has a 'right' to but is denied due to the extent of separation and self-interest that has been allowed to divide and disregard the inherent honor and dignity and equality of life.

Deconstructing my Male Ego Design - Part 1

 Here I am opening up the point of the male ego, and how I have participated in this design of being a "male".

Within the experience of being a "male ego", I see that I am consistently in points of judgment and self-sabotage, which then leads to a polarity manifestation of wanting to dominate and be in control due to otherwise being in a point of perceived inferiority.

Often what happens is that I will want to achieve something, but will go into fear and self-doubt about the point that I want to accomplish, and will then find ways to sabotage myself and create ways to blame my environment or the people around me so as to not have to face a point of "shame" - which is me holding on to my male ego pattern of never wanting to be seen as 'weak' or 'wrong', and wanting to always be a the winner and be seen as confident, competent, and 'worthy' - as though by being such qualities I am better than others and thus can justify feeling good about myself and participating in delusions of grandeur.

Within this design there is also the tendency to not want to hear when I make a mistake - I will want to argue or not face the point and sometimes will go into a lock-down where I shut myself off and do not want to communicate about a point due to not wanting to be judged as weak or 'wrong' - not wanting to potentially face myself due to the unwillingness to admit my 'faults'.



Another play-out of the male ego point is when I would go into a form of energetic possession in which I would experience a sudden 'rush' when I do accomplish something that I set out for myself to accomplish, or I will brush off the projects that I would start but never finish. This is obviously not sustainable or acceptable, as I would either give up entirely on a point without actually pushing myself and applying myself - or I would go into an energetic experience of "wow, I'm cool" or "Now people accept/validate me"

I at the moment I see that much of my male design behaviors are rooted in the point of not accepting myself and allowing society and the media to be and become my 'role models', where I took on that point of presenting myself as an acceptable male according to the idea and belief that the male must always be right - that the male must be in control and direct himself as such - otherwise it is a sign of weakness - this constant need to compete with other males can be seen within every institution in the world - and thus far there have been no winners in man's constant competition against himself and his fellows. Rather, we have manifested a world as men that is now at the brink of disaster and unimagined consequences, in which men have had the role of dominance without having effectively directed the responsibility that comes with such power.


It is time for men to let go of the male ego design. It is time for men to let go of competition and participating in fearing to appear 'weak' and 'inferior' when in fact it is REAL strength and courage to stand up and take responsibility for ourselves and our world, as well as to will ourselves to face all of the dimensions of self that we have kept secret and never ever wanted to know. A better world is ready to be born and it will have no place for the dishonesty and self-interest of the male.