May I Have Your ATTENTION Please?

Most of us are familiar with the term “divide and conquer” and understand the idea that by creative division and separation within a group or a unit, one is able to weaken that group or unit or cause it to become distracted with internal conflicts so that one can have an easier time with conquering and establishing control over that group or unit.

One is able to see that within one's own mind, we are constantly dividing ourselves with the things that we give our attention to in our world. We are constantly going from one point of attention to the next, moving from one personality to another, creating opinions and backchat and judgments about ourselves and everyone else – each time splitting ourselves and separating ourselves from being HERE and being aware of who we are and what we are participating in and the consequences that result from our acceptances and allowances.

A big problem with this, is that we will tend to actually fight for and defend our divided attentions – proclaiming that it is our 'right' to think as we wish and give our attention to whatever we wish and participate in whatever we wish because nobody should get to control us – and within this very fear of being controlled and thus defending and reinforcing our fear by rallying against anything or anyone that may be a threat to our 'individuality' – we separate ourselves from ourselves – we separate ourselves from everything that is in fact HERE and instead fight for the 'right' to exist as an individual within only our minds.

This is perfect for those who understand how to control and manipulate the attention and desires of 'individuals' – because individuals will always seek to fulfill their own desires, and will look for ways to make their opinions real – to make their self-interest real – and will thus follow and give their attention to the things that will support their self-beliefs – all the while convinced that their thoughts, their desires, the things that they give their attention to – are out of their own 'free will' when in fact those who have understood how the mind operates and how to convince people to accept ideas and beliefs and then to fight for such ideas and beliefs amongst each other have been utilizing this very tactic of divide and conquer to ensure that humanity does not ever realize the ONE THING that would set humanity free from the confusion and madness and the endless strife and conflict – and that ONE THING is the realization of Self-Attention.

Why is Self-Attention the point that would free humanity from control and in fact ensure that nobody will be able to misdirect or manipulate us? Because as long as we continue to give our attention to that which is separate from ourselves – that which is placed into the systems of this world that tell us how to feel, what to look at, what to belief, how to behave, or what to think – we will always miss the point of OURSELVES as one and equal with this existence – meaning we actually give up our point of equality and the ability to direct what is here as an equal and one participant and co-creator in this world – in favor of trying to protect and defend values and ideas and beliefs that are given to us, indoctrinated into us – impulsed onto us constantly and repeatedly until we accept it as our own. Then we give our attention to the things in the world that support and validate our ideas and beliefs only – instead of looking DIRECTLY at this world and this reality and seeing through the deliberate separation and mis-direction in which we are constantly trained to give our attention and focus and energy to trivial and frivolous ideas – and will actually compete with each other, separate ourselves from each other – to defend our own 'right' to our 'own ideas' and the 'right' to give our attention and energy away to whatever we wish and thus becoming the very manifestation of control and enslavement in this world – ensuring thus that mankind will NEVER in fact walk here on this earth as equals, and will NEVER in fact realize our creative power and our actual full potential – so long as we keep focused on dividing our attention and fighting for the pieces of ourselves.

Here I will walk the self-forgiveness and self-corrections within this point of attention-diversion that I see within myself and the consequences that I am responsible for when I allow myself to give in to attention-diversion

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is simply “my right” to think about whatever I want and thus anyone who tells me that I should consider changing my participation with 'my own' thoughts is trying to control me for their own benefit – when in fact I am simply wanting to hold on to my own self-interest – to not unconditionally consider the consequences of what happens when I allow myself to indulge in my mind without any consideration whatsoever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my own point of self-attention, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus give my attention away and allow my attention to be directed by the media, my opinions, by 'experts', by desires and cravings that are based only on self-interest, and by a consumption based model of society in which giving in to our desires is rewarded.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold on to ego and self-interest within believing that I am 'in control' when I allow myself to participate in thoughts and attention diversions throughout my day, believing that I am directing all of it when in fact it is the other way around and the thoughts and pictures and reactions that I give my attention to and allow to influence and direct me are IN NO WAY self-directed because I did not in any moment actually stop and direct myself to think about a certain thing or create a certain picture within my mind or to go wander off into a stray thought and thus allow myself to distract myself and divert myself from what is in fact HERE in this reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take lightly this point of attention diversion within believing that it is not so bad as long as we keep ourselves in control of it and not let it get 'out of hand', and within this excusing and justifying an existence in which we listen to thoughts and voices and pictures within our minds and consider that 'normal' when the simplicity of the physical reality is always here, always stable, and never requires internal conversation – which shows just how far we have diverted our actual attention and just how far we have separated ourselves from actually LIVING here one and equal with this reality but instead divided and conquered ourselves within letting ourselves be lead by thoughts and internal conversations and pictures that have nothing in fact to do with practical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and consider that allowing myself to participate in attention diversions in which I deliberately let go of self-responsibility and self-direction in all that I do, in each moment of breath, is the same as me putting myself on a leash and then handing that leash to whatever I allow to be my master.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in attention diversion when I hold on to an opinion or self-belief that I value more than what is actually here and will this give my attention to the defense and protection of this opinion – this dividing myself and allowing myself to be conquered by my unwillingness to let go of my opinion to instead see directly without personal bias.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT slow down and stop myself when and as a picture or thought comes up within me and entices me to live and follow through with that thought, and in that moment giving up my self-direction and self-awareness – to instead of standing here and moving myself here with and as my physical body, directing myself in each moment of breath and ensuring that everything I do is an actual expression of me, rather allow myself to create alternate realities in my mind by following my thoughts and random images and thus placing myself on a leash and handing that leash to my mind as my thoughts – allowing myself to thus be a slave to my own thoughts instead of realizing that I am NOT my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist slowing down and stopping the mind because I do not want to let go of self-interest and having my own personal experiences and being able to do whatever I want in my own mind – believing that I am at all alive in this mind – that I am at all self-aware in this mind – that the thoughts and pictures and emotions and reactions are at all self-directed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to divide and conquer myself within attention diversion – where I allow myself to chase a thought or give in to a desire or temptation, and in that making myself equal to only a thought instead of standing here as the directive principle of me – to direct and move myself in all that I do and ensuring that all that is do is in fact what I live and what I stand by.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that each time I allow myself to chase a thought, slip into a daydream, or simply give in to a temptation – whether it is to go out and indulge on the urge to eat sugary foods as an energetic experience, or to not do my assignments and rather spend my time entertaining myself, or to gossip about others in my own mind instead of moving myself OUT of the mind and establishing actual communication and intimacy in my relationships – or even if it is a 'stray thought' that seems insignificant and harmless if I allow myself to follow it just to see 'where it takes me' – because no matter where it does take me, it is taking me away from the one place that I require to be in order to actually live and make a difference in this reality – thus to allow myself to indulge in any kind of attention diversion where I 'lose myself' and I am not here moving, directing, breathing – I have been divided and conquered.

Self-Corrections and Commitments

I commit myself to, when and as I see I have slipped into attention diversion, stop myself immediately and do NOT allow myself to go after that thought or give in to that desire or temptation by breathing, and making sure that my mind STOPS MOVING and that I am in fact here.

I commit myself to stand and say “NO” when and as I notice the pull of an attention diversion, and to consistently stop and say “NO” and establish my point of self-trust and self-direction no matter how many times I must do it until such attention diversions no longer come up within me or have any ability to influence or direct me.

I commit myself to, when and as I see/notice the temptation to follow a thought, go into a daydream state, participate in internal gossip/backchat, or indulge myself in a desire as a point of distracting myself from being HERE and moving myself HERE, I stop and give myself the will and authority to slow down, be here with myself, and practice/walk this point of self-attention instead of attention-diversion until all that remains is self-attention.

I commit myself to UNITE and DIRECT myself instead of DIVIDE and CONQUER myself by applying myself and using the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective application patiently and consistently so that I stop getting 'lost' within my own mind – so that I am able to remain HERE as the directive principle of me no matter where I am – and thus be able to trust that I will always do what is best for all, and that I do not compromise myself or give in to the attention diversions of the mind or of this world.

Future Projections Are Science Fiction

Often I have made decisions about what I would like to be and become in my life, what I would like to 'experience' myself as, and would idealize these concepts and place them into an alternate dimension in my mind, in some possible future, where I have already done the necessary steps to make that decision a reality and begin to lose myself within that fantasy of an alternate future where I get to live the life of my dreams, and will create such vivid experiences for myself based only making myself feel happy or as a way to 'comfort' myself by projecting myself into that idealized world so that I am able to, for a moment, escape from my current reality where I see there are points that I am not satisfied with but have not directed myself effectively to change.

What happens is that this 'idealized' version of self assumes that I have already done the 'work' of what it will practically require in order for me to be and become that idea – that picture – and while I am generating energetic experiences for myself to feel happy and comfort myself with this projected future reality in which everything 'works out fine' and I am the 'ultimate winner', eventually the energy runs out and I am back HERE, where I have not in fact moved myself within directing what is currently in my life, and I become disappointed because what is actually HERE in my reality then seems so far from that alternate future reality that seemed so vivid, so 'real', because I had placed so much emphasis on the experience of it within me – where I made that experience 'more than' what is actually here and thus become disappointed when the illusion ends and I see that I am not yet THERE in that future dimension, which then seems even 'further away' or simply 'impossible' because it is in no way based on what is actually HERE and who I actually am at this very moment, in this very breath, in the current context of my placement within the world, my relationships, and my standing within myself.

These future projections of idealized selves are addictive because they serve as a 'promise' or a momentary 'taste' of the ending of a conflict or the resolution of a particular challenge in my life that I am currently facing or still trying to suppress, where 'if only' that alternate future were real, I would 'already' be 'done' with what I am now facing or still suppressing which is causing discomfort, conflict, and friction within my experience of myself because I see that I am being dishonest with me and not living my life to the fullest potential possible because I am holding on to fears and self-created limitations that I have not forgiven and walked through with actual, practical self-movement.

Thus future projections are actually a point of self-manipulation where I attempt to 'comfort myself' or give myself an essentially empty promise of a better 'future' where everything will be alright, so I do not need to fret or worry or concern myself with what is currently troubling me in my life, where I have not given proper direction, and to simply allow whatever is currently 'not working' in my life to continue since I am able to just project myself into an alternate dimension and experience myself as 'happy' and 'complete' and thus ignore and disregard what I require to do and give direction to within my actual living – not seeing or realizing that when I participate in such future projections I in fact diminish my ability to do what is required to be done and actually trap myself within not walking through the resistances and fears that are currently keeping me from actually, practically, living and expressing the life that I would truly want, where I give up on myself and the potential of what I am able to accomplish due to fear of failure or fear of rejection or fear that I cannot in fact manifest my desires because the desire itself is not based on what is best for all.

Identifying the Aspects of Future Projections

There are some different aspects of future projections that I notice as I look at this point and examine the various starting points that give rise to future projections -

1. “Fear of Failure” – Creating future realities in order to compensate and justify not moving myself because I have already made the 'decision' that I 'cannot' or am simply not willing to do what is necessary to be done.
2. “Impatience/Lack of Self-Trust” – Creating future projections because I have not developed the necessary discipline and patience to develop the necessary skills and create the necessary conditions to manifest a particular point, thus allowing self to give in to the idea that I am not able to trust myself commit myself to doing what it takes to get something done.
3. “Addiction to Instant Experience and Energy” – Creating future projections because I am able to experience 'instantly' the 'result' that I would like for myself, where I am only considering how I would like to experience myself within self-interest and not taking into consideration what it would take for me to really, in fact experience that point in my reality, where the 'reality' is not as exciting or stimulating as what I am able to generate and create within my mind – thus giving in to the addiction of energetic experiences that are able to happen 'instantly'.
4. “Magical Wishing” - Where I do not want to actually work or be diligent and instead 'wait' for life or the universe or some external force to simply give to me what I desire, so that I do not have to face any point of 'failure' or 'rejection' because I have made this future projection 'more important' and more 'valuable' than myself, and prefer to not risk 'messing it up' within lacking self-trust and self-value, which I place into this idea outside of myself that I secretly wish would just 'manifest' for me because I wish an desire for it so badly.

Self-Forgiveness on Future Projections

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create future idealized versions of myself, where I picture and create experiences of already being the things that I desire and currently exist in separation from, and project those points out into a future reality that is not in fact here, so that I am able to comfort and console myself and have something to 'look forward to' instead of being HERE with what is actually here in my current reality and working with what is here to step by step, breath by breath, undo the patterns and programming that do not assist or support me while establishing new foundations of self-honesty and self-trust as I walk myself to a point of self-perfection slowly but surely.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from that which I desire, which I then project outwards into the future as some goal that is outside of me that must be attained before I am able to be satisfied with myself, wherein I am constantly and continuously trying to manifest an 'ideal self' in an 'ideal future' based on pictures that are constantly changing and shifting according to the nature of my desires and self-interest as a response to me not in fact living my life HERE in the fullness and completeness that is already here, which I am simply not allowing myself to stand one and equal to/as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize the silliness of beating myself up and doubting myself and sabotaging myself just because my current reality does not match up with a reality that I intentionally created as a fantasy in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT slow down and consider if it is actually worth the time and energy that I spend creating future projections, planning for future projections, trying to manifest those future projections, and putting off that which requires my direction and attention HERE in my actual daily living application in the hopes of being able to sort out my current problems by creating a better 'future' – not seeing or considering that any 'future' will only be a consequential outflow of who and what I am and what I am accepting and allowing within myself HERE, in this very moment of breath, and if I am not HERE directing what is HERE, then any future that may result will be one that is mis-directed because I did not take the time and opportunity to direct myself and missed the chance to direct me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will only be happy, only be content, only be satisfied with myself if I am able to be and become the pictures that I create in my mind which are based on desires that I have separated myself from and to not stop and question WHERE and these desires come from and HOW I have separated myself from them to such an extent that I have been willing to put my actual living application HERE in each breath on hold, as I 'hold my breath' and wait for some ideal future reality to manifest while my actual life and living goes undirected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny myself the self-trust and self-will to step by step, breath by breath, develop and create the best possible version of myself in this life through patience and walking what requires to be walked practically and realize that it is in fact possible to change me and it is in fact possible to live and express me in ways that I have not allowed myself to before simply due to fear and separation and allowing myself to exist within the mind instead of living HERE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my trust within the mind's ability to create fictional realities through energy as thoughts, feelings, and emotions to generate 'experiences' within myself that never last and always leave me disappointed instead of developing Self-Trust within the surety and certainty of each breath that I take as a commitment and decision to myself – to honor and restore the stability and completeness of me as LIFE one breath, one point at a time.

Self-Corrective Statements/Commitments

I commit myself to, when and as I see/notice myself projecting into the future and creating a 'better experience' than what I am currently walking/facing, stop myself and realize that being in that alternate world will only prolong my process of walking and facing what is HERE and that the extent to which I am able to effectively work with and direct what is HERE, is the extent to which I can be certain that any potential 'future' that will develop from this present moment will be effective and in alignment with my commitment to re-establishing me within what is best for all.

I commit myself to, when and as I require to plan and make decisions in relation to my 'future', write out specifically the points to be considered in terms of what I am currently walking and facing in my actual reality and to move myself within the necessary actions and decisions that will in fact align me within what is best for all as the most effective placement of myself, wherein I do not allow my decisions to be influenced by desires or fears or future projections, but rather aligned to practical considerations.

I commit myself to bringing myself back here each and every time I notice myself projecting into a future projection where I am already experiencing some form of 'success' or 'completion' that is not in fact here as me as my actual reality and do not allow myself to linger or hold on to such projections because I see and realize that allowing myself to distract myself with such projections and 'waiting' for some kind of miracle to manifest for me my desires instead of moving and directing myself effectively in each moment and being my own point of self-creation.

I commit myself to stop projecting myself into alternate future realities in which I have already accomplished a task or achieved a certain goal or decision, or make ANY decisions based on such future projections and instead support myself within facing what is HERE so that I in fact walk through my points of resistance and fear, and PROVE to myself beyond any doubt or future projection/expectation of the mind that I in fact create me and direct my life – thus I do not require to project myself into an alternate reality/future in an attempt to 'find' or 'create' myself.

Redefining Words -

“Future Projection”

“Future”

1. Time that is to be or come hereafter.
2. Something that will exist or happen in time to come: The future is rooted in the past.
3. A condition, especially of success or failure, to come: Some people believe a gypsy can tell you your future.

“Projection”

1. An estimate or forecast of a future situation or trend based on a study of present ones.
2. The presentation of an image on a surface, esp. a movie screen.

Here I see that when these words are placed together, one can see the design of projecting into the movie screen of our minds the estimated future situations or trends based on one's current study of/understanding of the 'present'.

Herein the tendency and habit to project and create as the idea of our 'future' which is always based on what we currently see and understand as our 'present' – where we take what we currently live as knowledge and information and create our 'future' based on current understanding – already here we see the fear of simply living and letting go of knowledge and information – not allowing ourselves to exist as the simplicity that is always here and always needing to 'hold on to' our knowledge as our past, our memories, our 'experiences' as though such experiences are real or valid when even now, in this very breath, such experiences are not real – not solid – not existent in this reality other that in our own minds.

Thus 'future projection' in this context is the act of projecting and attempting to create as our 'future' and idea or belief of what will happen, based on the knowledge and information that we are existing as in the 'present' – or rather the 'now of consciousness'.

Sounding Words -

Future Pro-jection – Future Projected Actions – Actions that are not actually performed in reality, but rather projected as moving pictures in the screen of the mind that takes place in the 'future' like a science fiction film.

Redefining the Words “Future Projection” into a practical understanding -

Future Projections = For-Sure Projects in Action

A practical redefinition of the term “Future Projection” would be to consider instead of projecting our desired actions into the future as pictures in our minds, which would be us essentially creating 'science fiction' films about the 'future' to entertain ourselves with, to rather align our 'future' with certainty instead of 'possible projections'.

We can do this within standing AS the point of certainty, where we are 'for-sure' because we stop participating in any uncertainty or doubt within ourselves as to what we do and why/how we do it, so that we are sure that the result of our actions and accumulations will bring about a solution that is best for all.

In this way, the projections stop being pictures in the mind – and become PROJECTS in ACTION – where we are able to practically take on as projects the various aspects of our lives and of this existence that are not creating an experience that is best for all, where we can stop wondering what should be done about the situation and instead move ourselves practically and place ourselves into and as action to do what requires to be done, one step at a time as we sort out and participate in the greatest project that has ever been undertaken within existence – the establishment of Heaven on Earth.

Thus instead of allowing self to become trapped in science fiction pictures within the mind as 'future projections' of what would be 'cool' in some alternate reality 'future', we place ourselves HERE and bring HERE as for-sure projects that will in fact result in a world that is best for all in ways that previously were only considered in science fiction.

I commit myself to live as for-sure projects in action that which will bring about what we have all truly desired within what is best for all and to stop, forgive, and let go of 'future projections' that only exist in make-belief.