managing my time more effectively and not participating in procrastination is something that i see i must push myself within.
i see that i must make it a point to do my writing earlier in the day - and to not allow myself to put off writing until just before bed, where i am already wanting to just go to sleep and am not fully HERE.
in the last few days i have been experiencing a point of 'balancing out' my patterns of going into nervousness, anxiety, and lock-downs have been noticeably reduced, and when i do experience such points i no longer allow myself to dwell on it.
where i see i still require accumulation is the point of self-direction in each breath, and slowing WAAAY down within all that i do so that i am HERE fully participating and not in my mind - and within this trusting self within and as the physical.
I will open up further points as i get better with managing my time during the day. i will follow up on this writing most likely tomorrow.